gw_really bad day by gemstar69

Chaos reigns

On Wednesday morning, we found out that my mother-in-law has pancreatic cancer that has metastasized in the bone.  In other words, FUCK.  Whilst they understand that it is bad and terminal, Rich and his sister are still been blithely “optimistic” about how long they have until they hear otherwise (her next appointment is on Wednesday when we should know more).  That is, they are talking about us all going home for Christmas.  His sister even mentioned five years, but a five year diagnosis is for localized pancreatic cancer, not metastasized.  I tried gently suggesting that he needs to plan taking himself and Audrey home in the next two months if he wants to see her healthy, but yeah, he’s not doing anything until he hears back on Wednesday.  I feel like I’m being a big meanie but I just don’t want him to leave it too late.  Not that we can actually afford flying home, but that is another matter.

I nearly got scammed out of a large sum of my company’s money by a very effective gentleman claiming to be our company’s CEO.  Thankfully there were enough red flags for me to say “screw confidentiality, I’m not taking the flak for this.”  It is one of those things where in hindsight you go, well of course it was a scam, but he was really good.  He also hit the UK office and got them all in a tizz too.  I found out today that our real CEO has cancer too.

Mum’s birthday was on Thursday and they both sound old.  This is sad.

It was also the second anniversary of my brother’s bike accident.  Physically he is probably fitter these days that many of his other 50+ peers (yay!), but his memory shot.  Sigh.

Also, my brother-in-law is still missing.  That’s 3 and a half months.  Apart from the emotional toll on the family, my sister is financially screwed because they organized their accounts so that they need each other to get to the money.
I have internal discipline issues I have to deal with.  When you work in a team of four people, this is a real drag.

And to top it all off, I just realized that Assassins Creed: Unity will only be available for the PS4, not the PS3.

Piss off world, I need a drink.
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ad_scholarly pursuits by perrynqa


Rich is correcting a student's MA thesis.  He is messaging me quotes.

"Cock fighting also represents a pastime which is highly male-dominated and women are merely allowed to be passive spectators and are not allowed to handle the cocks."

"On the male side, the language of everyday moralism was shot through with roosterish imagery and the cock owner spent much time caring for the cock, such as grooming them, feeding them, trying them out or just admiring them."
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A stream of consciousness hello

So, it is my first day back in the office after two weeks off looking after Audrey.  Kids are hard frickin' work, don't ya know.  Didn't go anywhere or do anything, but it is also kind of nice just to not be at a computer the whole time.  The last few days were really hot, so I've been running around in a bikini and joining in in water fights with the neighbourhood kids.  Also got her to give up her dummy, so that was a bonus.
Work is interesting in that many things were left in an odd state of limbo in my absence.  The first rattlings of a power play were I would come out the big winner if it comes off were happening on my last day, but in no way initiated by me (and in fact, from a very unexpected corner).  Needing to play some gentle politics in the meantime to fake looking like I can take on the extra responsibility.  Trying to not fall back into the old rut that just makes me depressed and non-productive.  We shall see.

We got an absolute shitload of rain this morning, but it is supposed to start being hot* again tomorrow.  Except now I'm stuck in a non-air-conditioned office.  Woe.

*The numbers are never that big, but the humidity round these parts can be brutal.
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Back when I still had time to watch TV

Bold all of the following TV shows of which you've seen 3 or more episodes.
Italicize a show if you're positive you've seen every episode.
Asterisk  if you have at least one full season on tape or DVD
[A long list of TV shows]
21 Jump Street
Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (Seriously, one episode was enough)
All That
American Gothic
American Horror Story
America’s Next Top Model
Angel *
Are You Afraid of the Dark
Are You Being Served?
Arrested Development*
Ashes to Ashes
Avatar: The Last Airbender
Babylon 5
Babylon 5: Crusade
Barney Miller
Batman: The Animated Series
Battlestar Galactica (the old one)
Battlestar Galactica (the new one)
Being Human – UK
Being Human - US
Beavis & Butthead
Beauty and the Beast
Beverly Hills 90210
Big Love
Black Books*
Blake's 7
Bosom Buddies
Boston Legal
Boston Public
Boy Meets World
Breaking Bad
Brideshead Revisited
Brothers & Sisters
Buck Rogers in the 25th Century
Buffy the Vampire Slayer*
Bug Juice
Caitlin’s Way
Chappelle’s Show
Charlie’s Angels
Chicago Hope
Chicago Fire
China Beach
Clarissa Explains It All
The Colbert Report
Cold Case
Commander in Chief
Cowboy Bebop
Criminal Minds
Crossing Jordan
CSI: Miami
Curb Your Enthusiasm
Dancing with the Stars
Danny Phantom
Dark Angel
Dark Skies
Davinci’s Inquest
Dawson’s Creek
Dead Like Me*
Degrassi: The Next Generation
Designing Women
Desperate Housewives
Dharma & Greg
Different Strokes
Dirty Jobs
Doctor Who (1963 - 1986)
Doctor Who (2005)
Due South
Earth 2
Everybody Loves Raymond
Extreme Makeover: Home Edition
Facts of Life
Family Guy
Family Ties
Father Ted
Fawlty Towers
Firefly *
Flash Forward
Forever Knight
Fraggle Rock
Freaks and Geeks
Friday Night Lights
Full House
Game of Thrones
Get Smart
Gilligan’s Island
Gilmore Girls
Gomer Pyle, U.S.M.C.
Green Wing*
Grey’s Anatomy
Growing Pains
Gummy Bears
Hannah Montana
Happy Days
Happy Endings
Hardcastle & McCormick
Highlander: The Raven
Hogan’s Heroes
Hillstreet Blues
Home Improvement
Homicide: Life on the Street
I Dream of Jeannie
I Love Lucy
Instant Star
Invader Zim
Jeeves and Wooster
John Doe
Just Shoot Me
Justice League Unlimited
Keen Eddie
Knight Rider
LA Law
Land of the Lost
Laverne and Shirley
Law & Order
Law & Order: Criminal Intent
Law & Order: Special Victims Unit
Lie To Me
Life on Mars
Life With Derek
Little House on the Prairie
Lizzie McGuire
Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman
Lost (a title that accurately describes the time I will never get back.)
Lost in Space
Love, American Style
Mad Men
Magnum P.I.
Malcolm in the Middle
Mama’s Family
The Man from U.N.C.L.E.
Married... With Children
Melrose Place
Miami Vice
Miss Fisher's Murder Mystery
Mission: Impossible
Mork & Mindy
Monty Python’s Flying Circus
Murphy Brown
My Life as a Dog
My Little Pony
My Name is Earl
My So-Called Life
My Super Sweet 16
My Three Sons
My Two Dads
Mystery Science Theater 3000
News Radio*
New Girl
Night Court
North Shore
One Tree Hill
Paranormal Witness
Perry Mason
Phil of the Future
Power Rangers
Prison Break
Project Runway
Quantum Leap
Queer As Folk (US)
Queer as Folk (UK)
Red Dwarf
Relic Hunter
Remington Steele
Rocco’s Modern Life
Rescue Me
Road Rules
Robin of Sherwood
Salute Your Shorts
Sarah Jane Mysteries
Saved by the Bell
Scarecrow and Mrs King
Scooby-Doo, Where Are You?
Sex and the City
Silver Spoons
Sister Wives
Six Feet Under
Sledge Hammer
Sleepy Hollow
Slings and Arrows
So Weird
South Park
Space 1999 (most awesome opening credits ever)
Space: Above and Beyond
Spongebob Squarepants
Sports Night
Star Trek
Star Trek: The Next Generation
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Star Trek: Voyager
Star Trek: Enterprise
Stargate Atlantis
Stargate SG-1
Stargate Universe
Starsky and Hutch
Teen Titans
Tenth Kingdom
That 70’s Show
That’s So Raven
The 4400
The Addams Family
The Adventures of Pete and Pete
The Andy Griffith Show
The Apprentice
The A-Team
The Avengers
The Beverly Hillbillies
The Bionic Woman
The Brady Bunch
The Closer
The Cosby Show
The Daily Show
The Days and Nights of Molly Dodd
The Dead Zone
The Dick Van Dyke Show
The Dresden Files
The Famous Jett Jackson
The Flintstones
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
The Golden Girls
The Good Wife
The Goodies
The Honeymooners
The Invisible Man
The Jeffersons
The Jetsons
The Kindred
The L Word
The Love Boat
The Lucille Ball Show
The Mary Tyler Moore Show
The Mighty Boosh
The Monkees
The Munsters
The Muppet Show
The Mythbusters
The Nanny
The O.C.
The Office (UK)
The Office (US)
The Pretender
The Real World
The Sentinel
The Shield
The Simpsons (I am fairly certain I have seen them all)
The Six Million Dollar Man
The Sopranos
The Suite Life of Zack and Cody
The Tribe
The Tudors
The White Queen
The X-Files
3rd Rock from the Sun*
Third Watch
Three’s Company
Thunderbirds are Go!
TJ Hooker
Top Gear
Trophy Wife
The Twilight Zone
Twin Peaks*
Twitch City
Two and A Half Men
Ugly Betty
Under the Umbrella Tree
Veronica Mars
The Vicar of Dibley
The Waltons
The West Wing
Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?
The Wire
Whose Line is it Anyway? (US)
Whose Line is it Anyway? (UK)
Will and Grace
Without a Trace
Wolf Lake
WKRP in Cincinnati
Xena: Warrior Princess
X-Men: Evolution
You Can't Do That on Television
Young Justice
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Really, the subject is unimportant

the other half: What color cover do you want?
Sent at 3:25 PM on Thursday
me: oh, I thought it only came in black
what are my options?
green would go with most of the insides
Sent at 3:26 PM on Thursday
the other half: No green
Sent at 3:28 PM on Thursday
me: so, what are my options?
Sent at 3:31 PM on Thursday
the other half is offline. Messages you send will be delivered when the other half comes online.

I can only assume I am getting black, whether I like it or not.
lovehatebaby by iconomicon

I need to sleep, why won't you, why won't you let me sleeeeep?

I had hoped to maybe update before I went to bed, but I spent too much time catching up on everything else that my chronic sleep deprivation is taking its toll and I don't know how coherent I can actually be.  Today was a really hard day, with Audrey waking up at 4:45am and things not getting better from there.  She starts daycare in July, and next week is her familiarization week, so both Rich and I are hoping that with a bit of routine and an actual chance to do something other than just keep her happy the whole time, maybe we can all

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Pain in the neck

So annoying. My upper back and neck pain has been getting progressively worse to the point where I am now waking up with headaches.  Yesterday I tried to get an appointment with the physio, but could get one until Monday.  Now that appointment has been cancelled and I have to wait until next Thursday.  I think my spine might snap in two before then. Grumble, grumble.

We have daycare for Audrey, and she will start in July (with an initiation week beforehand). I'm trying to negotiate with work to come back full time early, but they are worried there isn't enough work to do. Really need the money, damn it.  I took her to a new kindercafé today, and she was sitting in amongst a group of kids probably 6-8 months, and she got to be the bully for once. Fun times.

Hark! It awakes...
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Jealous of Tyrion

It's that time of year where the white fluffy pollen is flying around and it looks like it is snowing outside. My sinuses hate me.

And I've forgotten everything else I wanted to say.